什么意思？

skl today was ......
sometimes , u jus wanna do sometime you aimed .
but , it always fail.
do you know how it feel anot?
okay nvm.
today's fri , last skl day for the week.
speech day training.
bcos it rains , we onli can train on wet weather programme.
slackslackslack .
then ...
okay , i shall make this clear.
wad makes you guys think tat is bcos of him , i don wanna go?
why? 为什么就不可以放过我
cant u jus gimme a break?
i know everybody is blaming everything on me now
yea , very disappointed.
but do u think i realli wanna go macau?
i admit i was excited when i first heard about the news.
but after all i realise , it don worth me doin all this.
i'm forcing myself to do everything u know?
i tot this can be the last event .
but why? why is it tat events are keep coming up?
it's about opportunity , yea , so?
我真的受够了，我很累了
why do i have to think as a whole when others don even think for me?
wad's the meaning of 1 nvr go , all don go?
teamwork ma?
it will just make others think tat it's all my fault tat they cant perform.
你们有想过我吗？
我一点自由都没有
我好恨这一切
我永远都不会忘记这一切。
尽管给我脸色 ，怪我 ，恨我吧。
我受够了

p/s. the way i am , i'm giving up.
tak all the blame on me.